The reason why you were passionate as a JW pastor was that you really deeply believed in your position.
Do you truly believed in whatever you believe now to be passionate about it? This is the importance of studying.
What does Olson mean? I think he is proposing directness. Aesthetics can become somewhat a layer over what we truly want to express. Our words, written or spoken, flow on the same plane as our actions, thoughts. If all of these flow in that plane of authenticity, why should we aspire beautification? I mean, beautification is ok as long as it is honest, earnest, and true and does not hinder truth and goodness. It shouldn’t fool us and hide what is underneath.